So can I say that I'm already ready for this week to be over???
I officially hate computers right now. I really shouldn't because I made the stupid mistake. I worked last night on a paper that was due this morning until about 4:30 in the morning. I was running so late this morning I quickly got on my laptop to transfer the file to my jump drive so I could print my paper out at school. Apparently I had already done it last night when I was saving the file, and instead of duplicating the file, I accidentally replaced it with a blank page. I was sooooo mad this morning when I got to school and saw that it was missing. I had only 10 minutes to quickly right the paper over again. I had no choice but to try and summarize everything that I had said in 2 pages. It sucked completely!
Then I go to my mythology class ready to turn in my copy of my final project to my professor, and she tells me that I was supposed to turn in 2 copies. A&M Commerce is so gay they make us pay for every paper we print out. I ran out of money printing off two other papers I had to turn in as well. So I had no choice but to tell the prof that I didn't have the second copy. She gave me until 5 to email it to her. Don't know what the rush is all about, it's just a stinkin copy. And this is the professor that gave me an 89 on a take-home exam that I only half answered, then turned in two days late. She's lenient with the grades, but not with a stinkin copy? Whatever!
And then I head towards my final class, and walk in to "Okay guys, go ahead and hand me your papers." I totally forgot to print out my paper for that class. Luckily she also gave me until 5 to email it to her.
This was just not my day!!! There was one good thing that happened. I got my annotated bibliography back. Kelley, you should be happy to read this. I got a 50/50, a perfect score!!! What I find craziest is that I apparently write better when I've had little or no sleep, and with only a couple of hours left before having to turn in an assignment. I won't even tell you when I started and when I finished this assignment, which was 70% of my grade. You'd probably freak out.
My friends just called to ask if I wanted to have dinner. Sniff sniff, they were going to treat me to Chili's. How sweet! I actually hadn't seen them in the past couple of days, which is a bit strange. But oh well...there's always next week to celebrate the end of the semester together!
Now I just have to study for my lab final, which is tomorrow. And then start writing my final paper for adolescent lit. I haven't the slightest idea what I'll be writing about for that. I guess I'll figure it out in a couple of days.
Monday, April 30, 2007
Sunday, April 29, 2007
What a week!
I sure do hope that all the drama will be over after this week!
My week started off okay. Stayed at my friends, watched movies from the 80's. I finally saw Pretty in Pink. She made it sound like I was going to go to hell for not having seen that, or a few other movies I still haven't seen. Monday and Tuesday pretty much rolled on by.
I woke up just in time for my lab on Wednesday. Wednesday was another night of watching movies, after hanging out at Todds's. I don't even remember anymore what we actually watched.
Thursday night was an awful night; I almost lost a friend to alcohol poisoning. The experience was awful. I don't ever wanna go through something like that again!
Friday was a recovery day from the previous night/that morning's events. Friday afternoon I returned back to my room to pack, after which I finally enjoyed some real food at Chili's with my friend Christina.
And Saturday, after arriving at the Glahn's for a couple of hours, I get a call at midnight that one of my friends had been in a car wreck and was bring transferred from Terrell to Greenville. So there I go heading back to Greenville to see how she's doing. At first there was concern 'cause she couldn't feel anything on her left arm. But after some drugs, x-rays and what not, the doctors came to the conclusion that it's just a pinched nerve. She got out about 3 hours later.
Sunday...well Sunday has just arrived. I don't know how I'm going to make it! I'm supposed to be up in approximately 3 hours to get ready for church. And I'm also supposed to go to Six Flags with Alexandra, and then come back to write a paper.
With the thought that I could have lost a friend Thursday night/Friday morning, and then the fear of tonight, I can't help but wonder what isn't right? Something isn't lined up right! I just hope next week goes by a bit smoother. I need it to, otherwise, I think I might lose it!
My week started off okay. Stayed at my friends, watched movies from the 80's. I finally saw Pretty in Pink. She made it sound like I was going to go to hell for not having seen that, or a few other movies I still haven't seen. Monday and Tuesday pretty much rolled on by.
I woke up just in time for my lab on Wednesday. Wednesday was another night of watching movies, after hanging out at Todds's. I don't even remember anymore what we actually watched.
Thursday night was an awful night; I almost lost a friend to alcohol poisoning. The experience was awful. I don't ever wanna go through something like that again!
Friday was a recovery day from the previous night/that morning's events. Friday afternoon I returned back to my room to pack, after which I finally enjoyed some real food at Chili's with my friend Christina.
And Saturday, after arriving at the Glahn's for a couple of hours, I get a call at midnight that one of my friends had been in a car wreck and was bring transferred from Terrell to Greenville. So there I go heading back to Greenville to see how she's doing. At first there was concern 'cause she couldn't feel anything on her left arm. But after some drugs, x-rays and what not, the doctors came to the conclusion that it's just a pinched nerve. She got out about 3 hours later.
Sunday...well Sunday has just arrived. I don't know how I'm going to make it! I'm supposed to be up in approximately 3 hours to get ready for church. And I'm also supposed to go to Six Flags with Alexandra, and then come back to write a paper.
With the thought that I could have lost a friend Thursday night/Friday morning, and then the fear of tonight, I can't help but wonder what isn't right? Something isn't lined up right! I just hope next week goes by a bit smoother. I need it to, otherwise, I think I might lose it!
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Summer paid in full!
So I found out on Friday that I don't have to worry a single bit about paying for my tuition or housing (if I stick to on-campus housing) for the summer. I was granted more than enough money through Pell grants to pay for my the cost. I will probably even have enough money to pay for books. Exciting! I haven't told my dad just yet. I think I'll make him worry just a little bit longer. Ha!
Alright, I had to put this up b/c someone told me I should share the good stuff too! You know who you are... ;). I must go back to working on my annotated bibliography. I finally got done reading a 24 page article, and have actually written the response. Although I will say that I'm not quite certain if I did it right or not. Ugh! But that leaves me with 4 more articles, which are all due at 10 am. I guess I better get back to work!
Alright, I had to put this up b/c someone told me I should share the good stuff too! You know who you are... ;). I must go back to working on my annotated bibliography. I finally got done reading a 24 page article, and have actually written the response. Although I will say that I'm not quite certain if I did it right or not. Ugh! But that leaves me with 4 more articles, which are all due at 10 am. I guess I better get back to work!
Thursday, April 19, 2007
close to the end
Two more weeks, then finals. This semester if finally coming to a close!!!
This week has been full of long nights, drives out to the lake, thinking - lots of thinking.
Looks like I'll be moving into a house over the summer here in Commerce. I am super excited. Details are getting worked out. But the cost would be far less than what I'd be paying to live on campus. And come on, it's a house. So much more breathing room. Then in the fall, there's a chance that I'll be living in an apartment. But I'll think about that one more as that gets closer. For now, I'm just excited about the summer plans. :)
Things have slowly, and let me repeat that, SLOWLY, have gotten better. My friends here have shown a tremendous amount of love. Anytime I begin to feel down, they are right there to cheer me up. I will say, I am not down as much as I have been the past couple of months. So that's a good thing.
I've been asked again to consider being an RA (resident assistant) in the Fall. I have to say, a part of me wants to say yes, but a big part of me wants to say no. Perhaps I'm being selfish, but I don't want to go through as much crap as some of my friends are going through right now. I saw the negative changes in certain people. And I see the treatment that some of my friends now receive. It sucks! I'd much rather worry about my own life, and not about some 60 residents. Ugh! Besides, what experience could it possibly give me? I don't plan on being a hall director or living on a campus for another 10 years like some people have! The only benefit would be free room and board. But that won't even be enough to convince me to do it.
I got to talk to my cousin that lives out in Cali today. Her mom, my "aunt", has been fighting cancer for the past two/three years. My mom had the chance to talk to her mom about a month or so ago. My mom didn't handle it very well. My aunt couldn't really keep the conversation going. Her health has gone downhill over the past 6 months. But my cousin today gave us a little bit of hope. She's been put on this new medication that was just approved in March. And in just a couple of weeks, she seems to be with so much more energy. My cousin just seemed so hopeful. The question now is can this medicine get rid of the cancer? More than likely, no. She has many tumors in her brain, tumors all over her body, the cancer has just taken over her body. It's just a matter of seeing what results the doctor gives in a couple of weeks.
My cousin was excited to hear that I'll be heading over there in a couple of months. I haven't seen her since she moved last year. Her oldest daughter, now 18, I used to carry like a football when she was little. LOL! To hear that she's graduating next month is just mind boggling. I guess it's just as crazy for her to hear, "I'm graduating soon!" Ah, family...I love them so!
Gosh, the rest of this month is going to be so hectic! First Communions, Confirmations, Quinceañeras, test, papers, projects, finals, and all the "extra-curricular activities" to end the semester. It's going to be insane! I guess I should use that handy planner I was given at the beginning of the semester so I make sure to not forget anything!
Anyway...well I guess this is enough thinking for the night, o... morning shall I say... I can already tell that today is going to be a good day!
This week has been full of long nights, drives out to the lake, thinking - lots of thinking.
Looks like I'll be moving into a house over the summer here in Commerce. I am super excited. Details are getting worked out. But the cost would be far less than what I'd be paying to live on campus. And come on, it's a house. So much more breathing room. Then in the fall, there's a chance that I'll be living in an apartment. But I'll think about that one more as that gets closer. For now, I'm just excited about the summer plans. :)
Things have slowly, and let me repeat that, SLOWLY, have gotten better. My friends here have shown a tremendous amount of love. Anytime I begin to feel down, they are right there to cheer me up. I will say, I am not down as much as I have been the past couple of months. So that's a good thing.
I've been asked again to consider being an RA (resident assistant) in the Fall. I have to say, a part of me wants to say yes, but a big part of me wants to say no. Perhaps I'm being selfish, but I don't want to go through as much crap as some of my friends are going through right now. I saw the negative changes in certain people. And I see the treatment that some of my friends now receive. It sucks! I'd much rather worry about my own life, and not about some 60 residents. Ugh! Besides, what experience could it possibly give me? I don't plan on being a hall director or living on a campus for another 10 years like some people have! The only benefit would be free room and board. But that won't even be enough to convince me to do it.
I got to talk to my cousin that lives out in Cali today. Her mom, my "aunt", has been fighting cancer for the past two/three years. My mom had the chance to talk to her mom about a month or so ago. My mom didn't handle it very well. My aunt couldn't really keep the conversation going. Her health has gone downhill over the past 6 months. But my cousin today gave us a little bit of hope. She's been put on this new medication that was just approved in March. And in just a couple of weeks, she seems to be with so much more energy. My cousin just seemed so hopeful. The question now is can this medicine get rid of the cancer? More than likely, no. She has many tumors in her brain, tumors all over her body, the cancer has just taken over her body. It's just a matter of seeing what results the doctor gives in a couple of weeks.
My cousin was excited to hear that I'll be heading over there in a couple of months. I haven't seen her since she moved last year. Her oldest daughter, now 18, I used to carry like a football when she was little. LOL! To hear that she's graduating next month is just mind boggling. I guess it's just as crazy for her to hear, "I'm graduating soon!" Ah, family...I love them so!
Gosh, the rest of this month is going to be so hectic! First Communions, Confirmations, Quinceañeras, test, papers, projects, finals, and all the "extra-curricular activities" to end the semester. It's going to be insane! I guess I should use that handy planner I was given at the beginning of the semester so I make sure to not forget anything!
Anyway...well I guess this is enough thinking for the night, o... morning shall I say... I can already tell that today is going to be a good day!
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Our Mini Escape
After a long Thursday night, a Friday of feeling sick all day long, having slept only 4 hours, then working until 6 am Saturday morning, and sleeping another 11 hours, I got a break from Commerce and everything it entails. Todd and I went to dinner and decided that we needed to get out of good ol' Commerce. So we drove out to downtown Dallas to walk around. We invited Sophie, and she invited Ferai, her friend. So the four of us hung out in downtown all night.
We started off at the West End. I sort of had to lead everyone since Todd had only been downtown two or three times (and he's from Arkansas), and Sophie and Ferai hadn't really been.
We walked by the Dallas World Aquarium. Sophie really liked the lighting of the trees with the green lights, so we took some pictures. We saw a sign outside of the aquarium that says "Cichlids of Lake Malawi". We couldn't help but take a picture of that little sign, just for our friend Zikani (He's from Malawi).
We started off at the West End. I sort of had to lead everyone since Todd had only been downtown two or three times (and he's from Arkansas), and Sophie and Ferai hadn't really been.
We walked by the Dallas World Aquarium. Sophie really liked the lighting of the trees with the green lights, so we took some pictures. We saw a sign outside of the aquarium that says "Cichlids of Lake Malawi". We couldn't help but take a picture of that little sign, just for our friend Zikani (He's from Malawi).
We weren't really aiming to go anywhere, we just wanted to walk, so we headed east on one of the streets. It ended up being a street with the same name as the place we were all trying to escape from, Commerce Street.
We walked so much that we almost hit 45. So we turned around to go back towards the JFK memorial. On our way back, we ran into Thanksgiving Square. I didn't even know that it existed. We all stood on a mosaic sqaure whilee waiting to cross which read "Thanksgiving Square". As we stood on it, we each said something that we were thankful for. I was just thankful to be in Dallas and not in Commerce.
We finally made it back to the JFK memorial spot. We looked around, read all the historical landmarks, and just sat down to rest. We attempted to get so many pictures of the Reunion tower, but at night with the lighting and cameras being so difficult, we struggled. Ultimately, both Todd and Sophie got a picture of the tower that they were happy with.
And of course, we had to get a picture of all of us together.
We finished off our little escape by going to S'bux, Tom-Thumb, and Wendys. We made it back a little after midnight to Commerce.
It really was a lot of fun to just get out. We weren't certain what we were really going to do. I have to say, the spontaneous drive to Dallas, and just walking around without a sense of direction was very relaxing. Although next time, we do plan on going during the day! :)
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
random thoughts
thoughts for this week...
1) i hate school!
2) sick of reading. sparknotes has become my best friend.
3) the night time has brought many escapes. so the night has also become my best friend.
4) don't call me between the hours of 1 pm and 9 pm. you interrupt my sleep...well talk to Dillan, he'll tell you what i'll do.
5) people need to just leave me alone. i don't want to deal with things right now. pushing me to do it isn't helping. let me enjoy my time, and i'll be fine eventually.
6) dreams are quite interesting, especially when they carry your thoughts throughout the dream so vividly.
7) i think i have figured out what hate really feels like. don't like it at times, but it sure helps in not caring.
8) always remember where your car gets parked after the night is over...that's all i'm going to say about that. lol.
9) walk the talk...i am so sick of people that don't do it.
10) $8 can really go a looooong way.
1) i hate school!
2) sick of reading. sparknotes has become my best friend.
3) the night time has brought many escapes. so the night has also become my best friend.
4) don't call me between the hours of 1 pm and 9 pm. you interrupt my sleep...well talk to Dillan, he'll tell you what i'll do.
5) people need to just leave me alone. i don't want to deal with things right now. pushing me to do it isn't helping. let me enjoy my time, and i'll be fine eventually.
6) dreams are quite interesting, especially when they carry your thoughts throughout the dream so vividly.
7) i think i have figured out what hate really feels like. don't like it at times, but it sure helps in not caring.
8) always remember where your car gets parked after the night is over...that's all i'm going to say about that. lol.
9) walk the talk...i am so sick of people that don't do it.
10) $8 can really go a looooong way.
little wonders
little wonders
rob thomas
let it go,
let it roll right off your shoulder
don't you know
the hardest part is over
let it in,
let your clarity define you
in the end
we will only just remember how it feels
our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain
let it slide,
let your troubles fall behind you
let it shine
until you feel it all around you
and i don't mind
if it's me you need to turn to
we'll get by,
it's the heart that really matters in the end
our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain
all of my regret
will wash away some how
but i can not forget
the way i feel right now
in these small hours
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away but these small hours
these small hours, still remain,
still remain
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away
but these small hours
these little wonders
still remain
Sunday, April 08, 2007
Video from Friday's dance
So I found out this morning that there is a short video of the Multi-Cultural Festival dance performed by the Indian Student Association at TAMU-C. The third performance is that of Aman and Simran. There are 3 performances in all. The second one was not shot that well. And Aman and Simran's seems to loose part of the sound for a short bit. What can I say, we're all college students with little money to buy the good equipment! :) Hope you like it!
Friday, April 06, 2007
Multi-Cultural Festival
A&M-Commerce had a Multi-Cultural Festival today. 51 countries were represented in this festival, if I'm correct. India was one of those countries, and I gotta say it is well represented everyday with all the Indian students around campus.
Aman and Simran were part of a group of 6 that participated in the festival by doing a dance. It was actually a competition. They worked on this dance all week long, many nights starting at 9 or 10 and going until 1 or 2 am. I joined them at their practices. It was really neat watching them during the practice.
But their performance today was amazing! The colors in the clothes that they wore were absolutely beautiful. They all got the dance perfectly. I honestly wish I had a video camera to get them on video and post it up on here. It was amazing! Needless to say, they won 1st place!
It was so funny, because Padma, the leader of their organization began to recognize everyone that had helped put the dance together, the choreographers, etc. And I was surprised when she said, "And Erica too, Erica helped even though she isn't Indian." Then they asked me to go up on stage with the entire group.
I had a great time seeing all the other cultures that were represented there...here are some pictures of the group.
Aman and Simran were part of a group of 6 that participated in the festival by doing a dance. It was actually a competition. They worked on this dance all week long, many nights starting at 9 or 10 and going until 1 or 2 am. I joined them at their practices. It was really neat watching them during the practice.
But their performance today was amazing! The colors in the clothes that they wore were absolutely beautiful. They all got the dance perfectly. I honestly wish I had a video camera to get them on video and post it up on here. It was amazing! Needless to say, they won 1st place!
It was so funny, because Padma, the leader of their organization began to recognize everyone that had helped put the dance together, the choreographers, etc. And I was surprised when she said, "And Erica too, Erica helped even though she isn't Indian." Then they asked me to go up on stage with the entire group.
I had a great time seeing all the other cultures that were represented there...here are some pictures of the group.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
5 weeks left
I looked at my calendar today to see how many weeks we've got left...5! I'm excited!
Today I went and signed up for housing in the fall. I am moving residence halls once again. I figured if I'm having to move to West halls in the summer, why not just stay there for one more semester (fall). I'm actually excited, there's an actual kitchen in the stinkin room. Now I don't have to worry about trying to "cook" in the microwave. And if I get the room I requested, Simran will be in the building right next door. Not certain who the roommate will be, but I have to say that I'm not the least bit worried. Can't be worse than it is now. And what's even better is that I'll be back to having my own room and not sharing with someone else.
I'm a bit worried about tuition for the summer. I'm hoping to get some aid through the school, otherwise daddy is going to have to pull out all his credit cards. Scary! I haven't had the nerve to call him yet and tell him how much summer came out to be. Can't say I didn't warn him at all. I told him in December, "You better start saving something around $3/$4,000 for summer. I'll have to tell you later if he survives the cost.
I've been slacking a bit on my readings. I should probably get back on track. I took a mythology quiz over the Odyssey after NOT having read it. That was not pretty. I still have to read 13 chapters by tomorrow morning. Ugh!
Projects and research paper updates are in demand right now from my professors. After all, it's just 5 more weeks! I'm going to have to stock up on Mexican coffee (if it ain't Starbucks, it's gotta be Mexican coffee), chocolate, chocolate ice-cream, among other goodies to survive. I'm already barely making it by sleeping through meals. Yum, chocolate ice-cream, don't think I can wait on that. :)
I'm just excited to see this semester almost over. I might not be going home, and I will start up right away with my summer sessions, but I'm ready for some changes. The fun thing is that my friends will be here during the summer, and I'll be more than likely be going home with one of them to California at the end of the summer. FUN!!! Virginia is still in my plans. But Cali, come on! It's a must!
So pray that I make it through the next 5 weeks!
Today I went and signed up for housing in the fall. I am moving residence halls once again. I figured if I'm having to move to West halls in the summer, why not just stay there for one more semester (fall). I'm actually excited, there's an actual kitchen in the stinkin room. Now I don't have to worry about trying to "cook" in the microwave. And if I get the room I requested, Simran will be in the building right next door. Not certain who the roommate will be, but I have to say that I'm not the least bit worried. Can't be worse than it is now. And what's even better is that I'll be back to having my own room and not sharing with someone else.
I'm a bit worried about tuition for the summer. I'm hoping to get some aid through the school, otherwise daddy is going to have to pull out all his credit cards. Scary! I haven't had the nerve to call him yet and tell him how much summer came out to be. Can't say I didn't warn him at all. I told him in December, "You better start saving something around $3/$4,000 for summer. I'll have to tell you later if he survives the cost.
I've been slacking a bit on my readings. I should probably get back on track. I took a mythology quiz over the Odyssey after NOT having read it. That was not pretty. I still have to read 13 chapters by tomorrow morning. Ugh!
Projects and research paper updates are in demand right now from my professors. After all, it's just 5 more weeks! I'm going to have to stock up on Mexican coffee (if it ain't Starbucks, it's gotta be Mexican coffee), chocolate, chocolate ice-cream, among other goodies to survive. I'm already barely making it by sleeping through meals. Yum, chocolate ice-cream, don't think I can wait on that. :)
I'm just excited to see this semester almost over. I might not be going home, and I will start up right away with my summer sessions, but I'm ready for some changes. The fun thing is that my friends will be here during the summer, and I'll be more than likely be going home with one of them to California at the end of the summer. FUN!!! Virginia is still in my plans. But Cali, come on! It's a must!
So pray that I make it through the next 5 weeks!
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Sudden loss
Saturday was such a good day...
Todd came in from Commerce to get his tires fixed in Rowlett. He and I hung out while his car was getting worked on. He went with me to pick out frames for glasses I have to get. We then went to BassPro or what he refers to as "the mall for rednecks". I'm just repeating his words. After climbing into the boats, looking at guns, playing with turkey caller things, and so on, we went and sat on the deck at the lake and just hung out.It was so nice out there.
The change of weather from the night before was amazing! We had thunder, lighting, and pouring rain Friday night. Saturday, it was beautiful, no clouds whatsoever, clear blue skys and sunny. Anyway, afterwards we went and ate at Cici's before going to pick up his car.
While we were at Cici's eating, I noticed this old lady that was eating with her daughter and son. I couldn't help but stare at her. Thoughts started coming into my mind. Todd even asked me what was wrong. The only thing I kept thinking was that it scares me to think that my mom will one day be that old. What's even worse is the thought of her dying. I don't know why, but these thoughts kept running through my mind.
Then nighttime came...
At 10:15 pm, my aunt called to inform us that her daughter-in-law’s mother had passed away. My mom immediately dropped what she was cooking when she heard me say the word "died" to my dad, and went to see what was going on. I was given the duty of telling my mother (always love that). My mom didn’t seem to really know how to respond. Let me explain why...
Soco is my aunt’s daughter-in-law. Ever since she became part of the family almost 18 years ago, my mom took her in as her own daughter. Soco is exactly the same age that my mom’s first daughter would be if she had lived, 37. So Soco became a daughter to my mom, and sort of a sister to me. I was actually jealous growing up because I saw how much my mom loved Soco and the girls. Her girls tend to call my mom "grandma", and the two oldest call me aunt sometimes. The younger two (3&5) call me "Nina" which is "Godmother".
My mom was also very close to Soco’s mom (which passed away). Soco’s mom knew that my mom was the one that protected Soco in our family, and stood up for her and the girls when no one else did. So both our mom’s had a special bond as well. Her mom always begged my mom to take care of her "baby girl" when she was away. That was most of the year, since her mom lived in Mexico. And whenever her mom did come for visits, she would spend a lot of time out with my mom at the store, shopping, etc. It was actually pretty funny to watch the two of them together.
So to get the sudden news that Doña Soco (Soco’s mom), had passed away suddenly, was quite a bit of a shock. My mom, however, put up a strong face. She quickly put on a jacket so we could go to Soco’s house. As soon as we walked into her house, my mom took Soco into her arms and didn’t let go. Soco just began to cry hysterically. It was very hard to see her in so much pain.
I know death comes, I’ve seen it several times in my family over the past 3 or 4 years, but no one is every ready for it! And just as we weren't ready for her mom's death, Soco was not ready for it at all! Who could have been?
We must cherish what we have before us, our family being the most important thing to cherish. One day, they may no longer be with us when you least expect it.
What a crappy way to end such a great day!
Todd came in from Commerce to get his tires fixed in Rowlett. He and I hung out while his car was getting worked on. He went with me to pick out frames for glasses I have to get. We then went to BassPro or what he refers to as "the mall for rednecks". I'm just repeating his words. After climbing into the boats, looking at guns, playing with turkey caller things, and so on, we went and sat on the deck at the lake and just hung out.It was so nice out there.
The change of weather from the night before was amazing! We had thunder, lighting, and pouring rain Friday night. Saturday, it was beautiful, no clouds whatsoever, clear blue skys and sunny. Anyway, afterwards we went and ate at Cici's before going to pick up his car.
While we were at Cici's eating, I noticed this old lady that was eating with her daughter and son. I couldn't help but stare at her. Thoughts started coming into my mind. Todd even asked me what was wrong. The only thing I kept thinking was that it scares me to think that my mom will one day be that old. What's even worse is the thought of her dying. I don't know why, but these thoughts kept running through my mind.
Then nighttime came...
At 10:15 pm, my aunt called to inform us that her daughter-in-law’s mother had passed away. My mom immediately dropped what she was cooking when she heard me say the word "died" to my dad, and went to see what was going on. I was given the duty of telling my mother (always love that). My mom didn’t seem to really know how to respond. Let me explain why...
Soco is my aunt’s daughter-in-law. Ever since she became part of the family almost 18 years ago, my mom took her in as her own daughter. Soco is exactly the same age that my mom’s first daughter would be if she had lived, 37. So Soco became a daughter to my mom, and sort of a sister to me. I was actually jealous growing up because I saw how much my mom loved Soco and the girls. Her girls tend to call my mom "grandma", and the two oldest call me aunt sometimes. The younger two (3&5) call me "Nina" which is "Godmother".
My mom was also very close to Soco’s mom (which passed away). Soco’s mom knew that my mom was the one that protected Soco in our family, and stood up for her and the girls when no one else did. So both our mom’s had a special bond as well. Her mom always begged my mom to take care of her "baby girl" when she was away. That was most of the year, since her mom lived in Mexico. And whenever her mom did come for visits, she would spend a lot of time out with my mom at the store, shopping, etc. It was actually pretty funny to watch the two of them together.
So to get the sudden news that Doña Soco (Soco’s mom), had passed away suddenly, was quite a bit of a shock. My mom, however, put up a strong face. She quickly put on a jacket so we could go to Soco’s house. As soon as we walked into her house, my mom took Soco into her arms and didn’t let go. Soco just began to cry hysterically. It was very hard to see her in so much pain.
I know death comes, I’ve seen it several times in my family over the past 3 or 4 years, but no one is every ready for it! And just as we weren't ready for her mom's death, Soco was not ready for it at all! Who could have been?
We must cherish what we have before us, our family being the most important thing to cherish. One day, they may no longer be with us when you least expect it.
What a crappy way to end such a great day!
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